Thursday, January 29, 2009

tense

so lately, i've been a lot more straightforward. it's kinda weird. i don't know. i feel bad because like sometimes people would ask me questions or whatever and some of my responses come out kinda nasty. i don't mean to have it come out the way it does, but it just does. it's getting a little harder to think about what i have to say before i say it. maybe this is all apart of growing up, realizing that i'll always be surrounded by people who don't know what to do with their life, and as much as i'm trying not to go about this in a mean way but i guess i really mean, "dumbasses." the people with no drive or interest and aren't doing what would be good for them because they think that everything that the adults are telling them are bullshit, which maybe depending on the adult could be bullshit but most of the time isn't. and please don't criticize me, this is just how i think, i couldn't seriously get penalized for this could i? but anyway, i'm currently in love with carribean passion from jamba juice. at first i didn't really like it, but i tasted again and i loved it. i guess i just had to get used to it.


Thursday, August 14, 2008

does it ever

get any easier? maybe. i think that at first it looks easy, but then it turns out not to be easy, but then as time progresses it gets easier. and then there's more.

like when you first talk to someone you're really into but can't talk to them much because you get all nervous and fuck up what you say. everyone has that one person they just can't relax with. but maybe, pretending like you're not nervous or anything works. i mean, you still don't know what to say most of the time... like it doesn't come to you right away, but when it does, it becomes a late response or conversation starter and then this is the part where they'll think, "wow you're retarded." "......"

i can honestly say that i'm getting better at this whole thing.
i think i try too hard.